Smile

A smile can bring you near to me.

sunday’s hosting for TQ was slightly better than saturday, so tt’s something… did have a few slip-ups though. apparently ‘mature’ is a word you should NEVER use on a girl, no matter how you want it to be a compliment. ah well, we all learn.. Just one more quarterfinals to go. 3rd Feb. Mixed feelings about the whole emceeing experience. i know i enjoy myself most of the time, but though i dun really look like it, i can be quite nervous sometimes.. because this isnt about me ‘throwing face’, but the whole TQ show being successful or not. i’m not saying i’m super important, but i think i have a significant part to play, and tt is a heavy responsibility for someone like me. Cross ya fingers and hope that i’ll do a splendid job coming sat bah~

was shagged out today. did my lab report till 3am, and had to drag myself out of bed (literally, like a worm crawling) at 6:30am. then 1st lecture i already nodded off quite a few times. when Rudolf Meier started for the next lect, i think i slept at every pause he made. in the end gave up and left lect halfway to sleep.

Had a fieldtrip to Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve also, tt was fun! lots of stuff teeming in a muddy swamp~ the group went all gaga over a saltwater crox lying in the sun… thought it wasnt tt interesting.. at least when compared to the behaviour of some of the other wildlife found.

reached back in school and got to know the passing away of another lifescience student. she was involved in the car accident together with my friend in States. good thing my friend is recovering well i heard. Just what i thought she felt:

There was no light,
Total darkness.
Swimming
in endless abyss
it seems.
No self she felt,
no pain, not even a little.
And then, an instant or eternity later,
A warm hand touched
and lifted
her tiny soul
Into a whole new World.
Beyond.

that would be me. TalentQuestX Quaterfinals Solo Category @ Plaza Singapura on 27th, 28th Jan and 3rd Feb.
i’ve always thought emceeing wasn’t such a tough job. Up on stage to say a few lines, make a few jokes, enjoy the limelight. Boy was i wrong.

It was tough. Instructions flew from left right centre, and my memory sucks. When i go onto the stage, my mind is usually blank, and i just make things up (as relevant as i can) to say impromptu. But this doesn’t work all the time as there are certain stuff and procedures to be done. That’s when my 486 brain processor starts to hang…

being at Plaza Singapura for 6-7 hours wasn’t bad, though the need for constant vigilance takes a toil. i was pretty worn out at the end of the day. Highlight of the day? It has got to be this little eurasian girl coming up to me and handing me a note saying ‘Thank you for giving me a chance to sing’. My heart melted.
We had a little game where anyone was allowed to sing a song chosen by the crew for the public to guess the title. and i picked this little girl from the crowd. At first she was hesistant as she couldn’t sing chinese songs. So i told her i’ll play her an english one and she finally agreed. She was the sweetest little thing. Though no one could figure out what she sang, she never gave up. Boy i love these young kids.

Little angels,
From heaven they came.
To each and everyone,
Spreading Joy and Love.
But even angels grow up,
And lose their wings,
Becoming like us,
Awaiting the little angels,
Once again.

P.S: Singapore won! and apologies for injuring you. =)

睁开眼睛吧朋友… 世界依然美丽。
还有太多，太多时间等着你。
它乡床没有故乡舒适的，
它乡食没有故乡称心的。
别睡了，
握着你双手的，
是你双亲的手。
滴在你脸夹的，
是你双亲的泪滴。
把梦推开，
回到现实，
因为没有任何梦境，
比的上活着的美丽。

什么圆圆圆上天? 什么圆圆在水边? 什么圆圆街上买? 什么圆圆姑娘前?
太阳圆圆圆上天, 荷叶圆圆在水边. 馒头圆圆街上买, 镜子圆圆姑娘前.

什么方方方上天? 什么方方在水边? 什么方方街上买? 什么方方姑娘前?
风筝方方方上天, 小舟方方在水边. 对联方方街上买, 手巾方方姑娘前.

什么亮亮亮上天? 什么亮亮在水边? 什么亮亮街上买? 什么亮亮姑娘前?
星星亮亮亮上天, 涟漪亮亮在水边. 花灯亮亮街上买, 水粉亮亮姑娘前.

i’ve absolutely no idea what has transpired in these last 2 weeks of school. Zilch. Zero. Nil. 零. But i enjoyed myself. and tt’s more important. really. graduating this sem means i really dun have to do much since my Pass With Merit is secured. just need to make sure i pass all my modules so i have enough MCs to graduate. hahaha~ *cross fingers*

hectic weekend lah. Friday yishan’s bday, all the way at Ang Mo Kio. Millions of lightyears away from this Western Paradise i’m living at. it was a small gathering, and being invited seems kinda an honour? hahha~ i was a sea of PINK, at the request of the bday gal, and i really couldn’t separate the end of one person with the start of another. scary.. ahhaha~

Sat was kinda nice~ went gymming for the 1st time in about… 1 and a half year? of course, my stamina and strength and what-nots dropped like hell, but i’m glad i could still jog pretty well.. hahaha~ think the highlight was samantha’s incredible strength. At an astonishing 4 revs per (unknown unit), she was one of the strongest gal at the canoe-machine thingy…. NOT! and she claimed she can’t understand why she loses to guys in canoeing.. *raised eyebrows* spent about an hour there, which was kinda short since sam had to rush off~ had a nice drink at the food centre though. =)

Packed and met Jo to go for Judee’s bday at Aloha Loyang. We were there early to swim, and swim we did. Though the sun was sorely missed. then i had to suggest we just walk back in our trunks cause didnt wanna get my berms wet. BAD IDEA.. judee’s family were all sitted in the living room by the time we were done, so it was kinda awkward walking past them… oh well not like i have anything to hide.. WAIT I DO!!! my belly!! hahha but heck lah~

made friends with judee’s 2 young cousin, jason and kenny. they are hyperactive lah, but so are millions of other kids their age. somehow i just have a way with kids.. because i’m just a big kid most prob. and i dun act like i enjoy their company, cause i really do. i think kids can sense tt..

Stripes was the theme, and since i didnt have any, i was made to draw stripes on my face. hahah maybe cause it was the way i did it, but in the end jason ended up wanting some stripes on his face so i drew them for him~ cute lah~

stayed over with Gin, Jans, Mus and Jo. haha noticed it’s always the few of us le. and judy of course. didnt have a good sleep cause the room was freaking cold, and Muslim doesnt understand the concept of sharing a blanket. nor the bed. hahahaa~ i’m cursed at chalets i think, always sleeping in the weirdest and most uncomfortable places in the end. ah well~

rest of the day was just at home. and thus i end the 2nd week of school. hahaha~

有的。存在的。内心最深处，藏着的。
我没法像他人般，把所有的不愉快，不喜欢，都吐露无亦。
更不懂得，将自己的感触表达。这是至小保护自己的反应。
这对我来说并无大碍。我还是比较喜欢，大伙读着本人的博客，嘴角会向上翘，心想：“郁涵这混球，到底在搞什么？”
因为每个人，都有着自己的烦恼，自己的低落。不需要增添他们的忧愁，的感伤。
当然，我也向往有个倾诉对象，可知己难求，能无时无刻陪伴在身边的，更是难能可贵。我算幸运了，有一帮不可多得的IFF。一个绝对靠得住的挚友，和百年一见但亲密无间的林小姐… 够了吧？还缺少什么？
挚友的一句：“朋友是永恒的，但只有一个人，能陪你走完全程。”
一个人。就是那个没有人。一个能为她失了魂，能从早到晚等着电话，等着的没有人。（版权于《曾宝仪-没有人》）一言惊醒梦中人？或许我早了解此道理，但怎么还是无法定下心来？要求与期望太高？
可能是自欺欺人吧…
继续等着没有人，直到没有人出现在眼前，或许能发现，没有人在自己面前很旧了。
才发现，我对没有人这字眼，产生了没有人有的特别感觉。
还是一句老话，我很幸运有那么多朋友，但你们福气更大，交到了郁涵这么没话可说的超级好友！=）

been watching shows quite a bit… ‘this the semester to be slacking, tralalalala-lalalala" =) Sneak preview for Apocalypto by Mel Gibson. watched with ‘thee-who-must-not-be-named’. hahaha~

anyway, this is a great show. the best for 2007 so far. i didnt go in with much expectation, but i thought it had something to do with the Spanish conquering the Mayans…  *spoiler alert*

the story started off simply. Tribal people hunting. lead character introduced. lead character’s tribe gets invaded. *gore, blood, the likes..* Gets captured. Meets villain of the show, yada yada yada… then this little gal afflicted with some diease appears on screen. she was GOOD.. her eyes spoke, as she spoke. and really had the effect. She prophesized the decline of the Mayans and stuff like tt. yada yada yada. THEN the stomach-twisting scenes of human sacrifices. *censored* At this point, one must look closely at the High Priest and King of Mayan as their body language and eye contact reveals a very significant part to the story. Why the Mayans were practising human sacrifices? Why the High Priest seem unshaken by the sudden ecplise? Why were the commoners cheering? Note that the Mayan civilization was fairly advanced and evidence shows they had some knowledge of Astronomy.

think the rest of the show was pretty much predictable. entertainment wise not too bad. The other part that got me thinking was when lead character was trying to save his wife and child, both at the start and at the end of the show. Given the situation you have to choose between your life and your partner’s life, how does one choose? Chinese saying: 夫妻本是同林鸟, 大难临头各自飞.

All in all, Apocalypto was pretty worth the time and money. catch it, you wont regret it (unless you cant stand the sight of blood, innards, the-likes)

P.S: Always stir your tea when you put sugar in. They take time to melt and stirring helps a lot.

我敢打赌，这二十三年来，从来没有下过那么多雨。天气变幻莫测的今天，可否是人类直接造成？

两月雨，开天之作。
连绵不绝，流也流不尽。
水池塘多少，就是点数不清。
两月雨，连夜雨，
唯有今朝了。

just caught this show today. so *spoiler alert!!* i cant really say it’s good or bad. sorta in between. for certain people only tt’s for sure. if you are looking for entertainment, then please dun watch this. you’ll fall asleep in the first 15minutes. i guarantee that.

it’s a dark dark DARK movie. i personally find the ending very realistic. haha~ guess i’m just evil. Set in 1942, i think the movie wanted to incorporate war with escapism, and of course some entertainment value along the way. it somehow falters along all three lines, and ends up inadequate in each department. The war was like just a small scale guerilla battle, the escapism was portrayed without much explanation, and the action/supposed-to-be action kinda sux… of course there are some saving grace to all these, and tt is the villain (notice how i always think the villains are the best? hehe) Man that guy was so sadistic you wonder if such a person really exist. then you realise he’s not all that bad compared to REAL people in the world. He knew Pride was his weakness, but he indulges in it nonetheless. Power does tt to people i guess.

Character development was insufficient given all the time the director could have used. I still dunno why the girl would suddenly be doing what she did, and how she could be willing to save her baby brother (logically she should hate him for ‘killing’ her mum. Birth complications) Anyway the girl does get what she wants in the end, though tt might not necessarily be good. =)

Oh yah company was good, and kept in secret exactly like how i was. haha but drinking tea is a kinda weird habit wouldnt you agree? dont think i really reveal much about the movie so yup go ahead and watch if ya like dark dark DARK stuff (not referring to any particular ___)

P.S: Why Pan is in the title, i really have no freaking idea. anyone watched le can tell me, pls do.