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if no one knows this song, let me introduce it to you:

Today is gonna be the day
That they’re gonna throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I’m sure you’ve heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don’t believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don’t know how

Because maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they’ll never throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you’re not to do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don’t know how

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You’re my wonderwall

Said maybe
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me

nice nice song! hahaha

nope not dungeons and dragons for you geeks out there, but Dinner and Dance for my Fac~

well all in all, it was a really great night of fun~ looking thru the videos made me wanna cry.. ALMOST. didnt regret going in a costume, though i wasn’t the most outrageous, it was still my first time dressing up!

Well it’s the end of FOP events now, so i really ought to start working hard. and yah, i’m in SCMC officially for those interested to know. if i ever don’t have time for you my dear friends, i apologise in advance. =)

hands up for those that have been "abused" during NS before… hmm… i believe many of us have been, but i’m sure we are all man enough to endure it… a relation of my personal experience (to all the females reading this, not many i think, sorry i’m just going to blabber about army today):

it was during BMT field camp, and my platoon was placed at the furthest end of the deployment area, relative to the fall-in area. In the wee hours of dawn, Platoon Sgt X (identity withheld for no reasons) commanded everyone to fall in within 5mins. 5 mins might sound like a reasonable amount of time you think, but hey, it’s not just WE falling in. All of us had to dismantle our BASHA and pack our bags and all that crap. heck give us half an hour and we may still be at it. the fact was we took more than the given time, and PS X told us to get the F*** into our pushup positions. then it was an hour of physical torture (it seems like an hour to me…) that was not so bad, we got used to it since PS X was a bloody big time sadist. BUT what happened next got him into hot soup..

we were commanded to go on our knees and crawl into position… and all the time he was bad mouthing our "father mother sister brother". at that point of time, i was too shagged to register ANYTHING he spouted, but apparently someone within the company did remember. PS X was investigated by the RPs for abusing of power and humiliation of surbordinates. Of course, he got off scot free (it’s a dark dark world in Army), but all this leads to a question i’ve thought about countless of times..

WILL I HIT BACK WHEN SOMEONE BADMOUTHS MY PARENTS etc?

My answer: YES.

when i say hit back, i’m speaking in no uncertain terms the use of violence. to give the person such a big thrashing that he will think twice, thrice, a hundred times before he ever speaks bad about someone else’s parents. Heck he might not even have the ability to think anymore when i’m done with him.

ok ok that sounds really unlike me, but if i could do this, i would. the fact is, i can’t do this in singapore. which brings back to my point, Vigilante Justice, should it be remotely considered? i guess chaos would take over if ever vigilante justice is allowed, but hey, humans are animals too (unless you like me thinks that we are actually virus). Quote: "There is Order in Chaos, and Absolute Order brings Chaos"

i’m not paying attention, i’m writing this in lecture.

shit… up till now, 3 weeks after sch started, i have no inkling of wTF is happening for all modules.. looks like my CAP is going one direction..

heard from sista my blog was unaccessible.. maybe tt’s gd? hahaha~~ no one should be subjected to my inane ramblings so often!

today’s topic: HumaN bEings should not be classified as mammals but virus!

alright i admit tt sounds freaking far fetched, but hey, Agent Smith in Matrix does make some sense to me! Nature has a way of balancing itself, and any animal is subjected to that balance. No one animal will upset that certain balance without any external factors.

humans are not restricted by that law of Nature. We stripped our land of resources, move on, and repeat the cycle all over again. tt’s exactly how virus works. they do not stop multiplying, and destroy their host cells after replication is done. Scientists till now are still unable to stop viruses; what we do is limit their resources or wait for them to finish whatever resources they have and die out.

Now what does tt say about OUR world? are we going to wait till we overtax our rapidly diminishing resources, or should be start behaving like the highly intelligent creatures we claim to be?

Personally, i think humans are not the smartest creatures on earth. in fact we are nowhere near there! which animal would knowingly walk towards its own destruction and yet not do anything to stop itself?

BAck to reality, had my SCMC interview yesterday evening. was pretty much ok, not as scary as they made it out to be… or maybe they aren’t really bothered with me bah.. ahahha

just feel like Shit right now..

wonder how shit feels like… i mean why do we say we feel like shit? shit can’t feel, they dun have selfawareness! they dunno wat it’s like to feel like shit.. damn tt’s confusing..

"well you dunno wat it’s like, when nothing feels alright, you dunno wat it’s like, to be like me.." and so the shit sings..

dammit!

"the leaves turn yellow, as time flows.

each its own, for they leave the tree alone.

stark and bare, the tree branches shiver,

the snow upon it silver.

i have no idea, i have no clue,

where all of these leads to."

yup yup the title says it all~

StRip@ChinAblack yesterday night was.. i dunno cause by the time i reached, it was back to the usual Clubbing already… anyway i had lotsa fun, even though it’s jammed packed with human flesh~

oh yah happy bday Carol! today is your bday~!

thoughts:

when you reached a certain age, things around you really seems different, compared to if you see them at a younger age.. a certain friend of mine, was depressed over things that from the way i see it, they are so NOT important..

i guess everyone goes through this phase, and that is why they grow up..

all the best to people out there feeling down about any stuff.. look at the big picture is all i can say

right here, right now, i shall lift my hands and record my thoughts:

hmm.. sat is such a wonderful and relaxing day. i love sats~

thinking abt what exactly lies outside our universe.. i mean there’s Earth, then there’s our Milky Way, then there’s other galaxies, then there’s this HUGE black space, then… what? our puny human mind is unable to comprehend SPACE, when given a limitless amount of it. What is space then? my friend told me in the end of it all, it is GOD holding all things up… which led me to question.. is GOD sitting down on a chair? i mean we ARE made in the image of HIM, and tt means he has 2 legs, and which also means he might get tired standing all the way for billions and trillions of years now.. so if he has a chair.. i wonder what is it made of? is GOD a wood person, or a metal person? or maybe it’s some other outworldly material out of our imagination? hmm…

oh yah i’m running for SCMC (Science Club Management Committee) this year as a SOW (Science Orientation Week) director~ for all my friends that are giving me encouragement and support, i sincerely thank thee~

it has really been an eventful month.. i hope things can settle down a bit..